what about this nautanki?

Nautanki adj. Hindi word for Drama Queen

These are the words I have recently come to accept as the best adjectives to describe me.
But it's more than just being the best at sensationalizing the silliest things.
I am a drama queen because I am complicated. I am the odd combination of opposing
personalities. Most people think what meets the eye is everything there is to me. That's ok.
It is not their obligation to figure me out. In the same way that I do not care about their opinion because they don't know me - which probably explains why I am the crazy way that I am. 
While some people, who are mostly my good friends both old and new, see beyond the facade. They know that I am just as serious as I am a wacko. I value them more than anything. My loyalty is uncanny. Bring on the battles, I will fight for them for as long as I am breathing (and if there is free food ;) joke.)

As my introduction may have hinted, this blog is about my journey to self discovery. Yes it is required and it is for school. I had to say this. Most of my best girl friends may see this and find it so weird that I am self analyzing (yet again) in a blog. 2 things: I am lazy and I am not a techie.
But what the heck, this is going to help me figure my self out and hopefully help me grow. Even better, this might just be my ticket to a balanced state of maturity and childishness. Because no matter how far I go or how high I can get, I am keeping the little girl in me.

So before moving on to the good stuff, I am going to indulge a little more on myself. After all, self discovery is about the self. Me, moi, ako. These are some traits which i think are inner misfits. The objective: at the end of this term, i should be able to explain why I am the way I am.

• I have a lot of acquaintances and I am a very sociable person but I can only count with my fingers my real good friends.
• I like being a loner and travelling all by myself. Thanks to my former job, I have discovered that I like taking 6 hour bus trips in the wee hours of the morning alone. Spending time with myself in a far place where nobody knows me is one of the best things I have ever done.
• I am not a risk taker but I am too decisive for my own good. A lot of times, I have had to deal with the consequences of my uncalculated decisions.
• I can stare at dresses in the internet for a whole day. I save them and stare at them every day with no intention of buying them.
• I laugh too much. I think.
• I take matters in own hands. I just love the evil deed of subtle untraceable revenge. I believe in the saying: Revenge is a dessert best served when cold.